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I think this blog will end up going back to more of a family blog with a ton of photos, rather than a photo blog with some family info. Things have been so crazy lately. Photography is having to take a backseat, not happy about that! The thought of us moving SO soon and leaving the Army behind is hitting me. What the hell are we going to do?? I am going to really miss the comfort of the Army. Knowing we always had a steady paycheck coming in and healthcare was huge for me. Now that we are leaving that I am kind of in panic mode right now. I still have almost 3 years before I am done with school. I am going to have to work once we move but it makes me nervous thinking about finding a place after not working in almost 6 years with no degree. I am a huge worrier. I am trying to relax and just kind of wait and see how things will be, but that's just not me.

I guess it is harder for me now that my husband finally admitted he really does not want this but there is really nothing he can do. He was thinking about getting out in 2013 anyways but that was just talk, just like he was talking about going to be a warrant officer. If he would have gotten out then it would have been on his own terms. It's different when it isn't a choice that you made. The Army isn't just a job, it is your whole family's life pretty much. It will be nice to not have to move around, or at least chose where and when we move.

Someone asked me how it is that I packed up my kids and got on a plane with them alone to move to Germany. For me that was easy! Not sure why or how, but it was. It was exciting starting a new life. Now that we are starting over again it isn't so exciting. It is full of worry about the unknown. At least when I left for Germany we had a place to live secured and a job lol. Oh and the fact that I was moving to Europe which I never even thought I would go there to visit. That sure helped take away the fear. This week I will be putting in some applications online. I will need all the good vibes I can get! Right now there is an opening for a great opportunity for me at the Children's hospital but my CPR has lapsed. I registered for a class to get re-certified the second week of July at my school so hopefully this job will take that into consideration. This job will help me out with what I am going to school for.

On another note...just one more week of school for the kids! Their last day is next Monday but they get out at 11:30. I hope between all the of stress of the moving we can get out and do some more things around here before it is time to pack up and go for good.